Then DEATH hit our family... Then nothing could be the same. People... Myself included couldn't handle the "elephant" in the room. So I made new friends.
This was fine until today when I realized who do you call on when you don't have anyone... My boyfriend says "me" and I'm ever so thankful but what if he wasn't available... Then what...
I've lived in Turlock the last 24 years... I moved around a lot growing up and I always wanted my kids to grow up in the same place... Why? For what?
Building a totally new life is not easy... At times it's painful... Other times it's rewarding and warm. I just wish there was a mix... The old and the new. I don't blame anyone but myself... I had to pull away just so I could survive the pain.
To the very few family and friends that have stuck around thank you and I am ever so thankful we made it through the hard times... You know who you are.
To my new friends I love you all and thank you for welcoming me into your circle. I feel so grateful. So even though I head to bed with tears I'm thankful and grateful for a new life...
