IT'S WHY DAY... SO MANY TIMES WE DON'T SAY THE WORDS OUT LOUD BECAUSE WE WANT TO ACCEPT WHAT COMES OUR WAY. WE WANT TO ACCEPT THAT THE GOD OF THE UNIVERSE HAS OUR BACK AND OUR BEST INTEREST AT HEART, BUT TODAY I WRITE IN ALL CAPS BECAUSE I AM MAD! AT WHO I DO NOT KNOW... I GUESS AT THE SITUATION, AT GOD, AT ME, AT MIKAYLAH, AT THE DOCTORS, JUST ANYONE THAT HAD A HAND IN THIS!
WHY? THAT'S THE QUESTION. WHY DIDN'T I NOTICE SHE WAS LOOKING SO DIFFERENT AND BAD? WHY? DIDN'T HER DOCTORS MONITOR HER MORE AFTER 6 AND A HALF WEEKS IN THE HOSPITAL? WHY? DID SHE GIVE UP? WHY? DIDN'T SHE FIGHT HARDER TO STAY WITH US? SHE WAS A BEAUTIFUL LIFE.
I MISS HER. MY LIFE IS FALLING APART. I HATE MY LIFE NOW. CHRIS IS GROWN UP, WHAT DO I DO NOW? I WANT HER BACK- I WANT THAT SMILE AND SASSY ATTITUDE. I MISS HER- SO AGAIN I ASK WHY?
(For those family and friends who worry non stop about me, know that I am not suicidal. I just have to get these feeling out and onto paper. Thank you for your support and love and prayers! You are all priceless to me! Love to all.)
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