Tonight I have a special treat for you! My mom wrote a poem, from Mikaylah to us and she made a video reading the poem. I am so proud of my mom. She is a special Grandma and spent many hours caring for Mikaylah. She was the second mom! Thank you mom for sharing with all of us! Love you!
Monday, March 19, 2012
Survived!
It's Monday... I survived... I don't know how. It was the strength I got from family and friends and all those candles and birthday wishes to my forever fourteen girlie! I told you all when I started this blog it was honest and I am having challenging days lately. Sometimes I can't stop shaking and I feel like fainting. Sometimes I have to lay down and sleep so my mind will stop moving. Sometimes I can't fall asleep till 4 in the morning. Sometimes my heart beats so fast I feel like it is pounding out of my chest. Sometimes little things seem huge. And all the time my mind will not stop thinking of her. I think I am in denial, everyday I still wake up and I can't believe this has happened then I look at a picture and it makes me cry because she is not here. I hear a song and it reminds me of her. She was so loved by everyone. I just keep saying I can't believe it and I wish she could have been here to see how much she was really loved. I wonder if she knew she had so many people who were inspired by her, I wonder if she knew that there were so many who would celebrate her birthday with her, I wonder if she knew that everyone loved her smile and her laugh. I wonder if she knew she had the most beautiful eyes ever. I wonder if she knew that I loved her more than words can say... I will never know what she knew because she is no longer here she can't tell me.
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