The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow!

As I drove to my job in Merced today every song made me cry.  I was like, "Tammy pull it together.  You have no reason to cry right now."  By the time I got inside I had pulled on my mask and had a smile.  When people asked how I was, I said, "Good."  I would never say, "Bad I cried all the way here."  They could probably tell I had been crying. 

Anyway, on the way home I was thinking about when I first started working at the Arts Council and about 2010 when Mikaylah went to work with me, when school was out for the summer.  She would go with me and just hang out and talk to anyone who would listen.  People loved having her there.  She spent most of her time on the phone texting.  Some time on my computer.  Then in the afternoon she would head down the street to Playhouse for a summer program of acting!  She worked so hard that summer, wheeling herself down there keeping up with everyone!  She wanted so much to just be like everyone else and to be apart of the group.  At the end of the weeks they put on a play!  She was proud and I was so proud of her.  It was fun to see her participate in a extra curricular activity. 

Anyway... back to the way home.  I remember last year as I made that drive time after time.  It always seemed beautiful.  My outlook on life was so different.  Every where I drive now things seem so dark.  That is not because its dark outside, its because its dark in my head and in my heart.  I began to ask myself... "Will the sun ever shine again?" And the song that came to mind was... (listen for yourself.)



http://youtu.be/qocqXSuFveg







Twenty five years ago in Springtown Texas I performed this song, crazy I know!  At that time I had no idea I would be here 25 years later and I wonder where I will be 25 years from now.  Time will only tell.  I know the sun has to come out sometime!